Why do I try?!?!?!

I give up! Let them do what they will. My ex is trying to tell me he can't afford to get Bea here for Christmas, my scheduled holiday this year, because he and Monica bought a new living room set. My mom is saying Becky won't come and Dad will still be in rehab so it's okay! NO NO NO All I can think about is Bill's Mom and her back surgery and then the funeral!