Sometimes

I wonder if I even know what I am doing. I am enjoying being a single mom, most of the time. I have lots of family and friends that are very supportive of me and the boys. I have gotten a new haircut, and had my nails done. My bills are all paid to date and I still have a few bucks left over, nothing with a shut off notice, Hubby and I were always in the hole, trying to dig out. I wonder why now.
This is the year my National Registry for EMT is up for renewal, need to get that done and I think I need to renew my cosmetology this year also.
Aunt Fay passed away yesterday around noon. I will miss her and her funny ways. She was a best friend and Aunt. Her kids are up from Texas and the funeral is to be on Saturday. Good-bye Auntie. I truly love her, man, it makes me mad. Aunt Jib has dementia and does not realize her sister is gone. Why would the one with the memory and mental health be the one to go. I really wonder. Maybe it's best to lose your mind, then you don't care about losing your family. In Auntie Fay's dieing words, we all say it once in a while, "Fuck It" I swear it is what she said! Love and Peace!